Like forgotten yet eternal dreams.
Broke in bits before her, the lady lacks her necklace.
Like the sweet-apple reddening high on the branch.
Better far that my body should suffer outrage than my soul.
Oh, each of us discovered life’s burden, and we call that time a fable, remembering ourselves as we would a stranger.
These are words for me from a divination two weeks ago where I basically asked if I was doing ok with my devotions. The overall interpretation I was given was I’m doing ok but there’s room for improvement. Isn’t there always?
In April I had a three card tarot reading done for me with the following overall message:
These may seem vague, as Minor Arcana cards, but I love the combination of elements here. It seems to tell of an emotional time, perhaps with ups and downs on several levels, but also with a sense of determination, goals achieved and a clear path opening up through it all. Keep hold of that determination, hun, you’re going the right way and have good friends at your side!
I had another reading in January of this year but that one was face to face and I can’t remember a great deal from it.
I’m also working on improving my own divination skills. At the moment that involves working with runes and practicing readings mainly on myself.
And then there is what happened to me on Saturday as I sat before my altar praying and listening. I slipped into a trance and began to journey, something I haven’t done in quite a while. Loki appeared beside me and we walked and talked in the Otherworld I know. I’ve been asking, thinking and wondering why Loki is still interested in me, half expecting Him to move on and not return. One part of my journey and conversation had a very powerful effect on me.
Loki asked me if I wanted Him in my life. At first I sidestepped replying clearly by saying “If you want to be”. That wasn’t good enough though. He asked me again:
“Do you want me?”
And this time I simply said yes. His reply was that He would remain with me then. I asked if it was that simple. “Yes.” We talked further, other things that I’ll not mention here but that helped clarify aspects of our growing relationship. I also gained insights into aspects of other deity relationships.
This year I have already asked for reassurance that I’m doing the right things, going in the right direction more times than almost any other year in my life. I’ve been unsure why I feel the presence of certain deities, why still other deities have come into my life.
Each time though I have been given reassurance that I’m doing the right things, going in the right directions. Most of those reassurances have been open to some aspect of interpretation. This time, with Loki, I’ve had something amazingly direct, amazingly simple.
And that simple question echos on in other voices – Do you want me in your life?
Sometimes devotion is as simple as answering that question.