Patterns of Devotion

I have written in the past about my deepening devotional practices. Today I wish to share with you how my devotions have changed.

I used to honour my ancestors at the dark moon, Maponos on Sundays and, Brigantia, Epona Rigantona and An Cailleach around the full moon.

Then I joined a flame tending cill with Clann Bhride and began flame tending in honour of Brigantia every twenty days.

I can’t even remember exactly when after that point that other things began to change but at some stage I began to honour Epona Rigantona each week on a Friday. I chose a Friday because Epona is my beloved and Fridays in the past have been linked to deities of love (see Wikipedia Names of the days of the week if you are interested).

It felt good to be honouring Epona each Friday so I decided to start honoring An Cailleach on a Saturday. I was now honouring different deities on Friday, Saturday and Sunday plus every twenty days flame tending in honour of Brigantia.

Then Loki came into my life.

I used to consider myself to be solely a Brythonic Polytheist.

Then Loki came into my life!

That bit bears repeating.  Loki brought change with Him.  I wasn’t looking for Sleipnir’s Dam and I didn’t expect or invite Her (at least not to start with) but for some reason best known to the Bound One, He decided to bring Her changes to me.

One of those changes was that I started to include Loki in my weekly devotions.  At first I tried slotting Him in on Thursdays but that didn’t feel right. So I switched to Saturdays, prompted in part by something I had read that suggested Saturdays had been linked to Loki in the past.  I can’t remember exactly what that was now but I switched days and it felt much better.

But it didn’t feel right honouring An Cailleach on the same day so after a bit of thought I decided to move honouring Her to Mondays.  There are aspects in some of the lore which I believe indicate ties to the moon for An Cailleach so this seemed to fit well.

For a couple of moons I tried to keep the lunar links I had made as well but that became a bit confusing as I ended up trying to honour two different deities on one day.  For me that became confusing and I felt I wasn’t doing justice to my devotions to either deity when the days linked into full moon cycles.  I decided drop the full moon devotions in favour of the weekly ones for a moon or two to see how it felt and I’ve kept that change.

So now I honour different deities on four days of the week and another every twenty days. I’m also no longer solely honouring Brythonic deities.  At first I thought maybe Loki would be in my life for a set purpose and then maybe wander off but at the moment it feel much more like the Sky-treader is here to stay.  The current pattern feels good with one exception and that’s the ancestors.

In dropping the full moon devotions I found I began to lose touch with the lunar cycle and the pattern of honouring my ancestors at the dark moon began to slip as well.  I still have my ancestral shrine area and still think of varying ancestors at different times but the more ritualised devotions have fallen away.  I’m still not sure if I need to start on a weekly basis for honouring my ancestors or try and restore the dark moon practice.  I think maybe moving to a weekly based practice would work out best, if so I have my choice of Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday currently free of other devotions. Maybe Wednesday as that day has links to deities of communication.

My journey with devotional practices has not been a swift one but one that has gradually altered to a more frequent family of devotional practices.  And I know that I am still changing and that my practices will also continue to change.

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Musings about Brigantia and Loki

I’ve written elsewhere about being a flame tender with Clann Bhride which means every twenty days I light a flame and look after it for twenty four hours as a devotional act.  During my last flame tending I found myself thinking about both Brigantia and Loki both of whom have fire symbology.

Brigantia and Her sister-self Brighid have many links to fire but it seems to me that the link is to a tamed and channeled fire.  The fires of the smith, of crafting tools and artworks; the fires of inspiration burning in our minds transforming imagery and emotion into words and pictures others can see; the fires of justice wielded with fierce discipline to forge a fairer community; the fires of the healer used to brew, to warm, to comfort; the long ago fires of a home hearth bringing warmth and security to our human homes.  She is not the fire itself but the one that wields, channels and tames the fire and in turn teaches us ways to use fire.

Loki is not one that uses fire, instead he is a fire.  He does not teach how to channel the heat, how to use the energy to craft and create.  He transforms. He changes. That doesn’t mean that he can’t direct and wield fire, he can because he knows what he is and so he can choose what to burn, what to transform, whether to be a single glowing ember that waits or a burst of flame that burns.

They are beings of different cultures, Loki and Brigantia, and yet I feel that there can be harmony between them, probably not always, but enough.

Neither being can be constrained into just one aspect of their identities and I’m in no way intending to give the impression that I wish to do that. This is just what musings have come to mind at this time where fire and flame symbologies are concerned.

Where I am concerned I feel they have in some way joined forces.  I need to change but I have a fear of loosing control, I fear the untamed burning and yet I know I need to be pushed forward.

 

Bridey’s Gift

Your beauty drew me close.
I reached out, gently touched you,
Gazed on you, mesmerised.

Silently I asked to draw closer.
Deep inside I felt your welcome.

I crept down beneath your sheltering skirts.
Sat, curled, at your feet,
Felt your life surround me.

Deep breath of wild garlic.
River laughter and spring bird song.

I closed my eyes to better feel your embrace.
My spirit slowly rose within me,
My soul let drop my burdens.

Triple tree woven into one.
Your gift to help me be.

me and tree
Embraced
looking up
Feeling
Being
Being

 Photos by Neil Pitchford, Awen Photos

Celebrating a year of Flame tending with Clann Bhride

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In January 2015 a couple of weeks before Imbolc last year I received an email from the Clann Bhride blog announcing the formation of a Clann Bhride flame keeping cill.  I had two other happenings the same day as I received that email which led me to send an email requesting to join the  Clann Bhride cill.  My first flame keeping shift, along with the others of that group, was Imbolc 2015.

A few minutes ago at sunset here in Glasgow I began my first anniversary flame tending shift in the knowledge that in various places in the world others in the Clann Bhride cill would also be tending flames to mark Imbolc, a festival that more than any other is devoted to Brigantia in all Her many names and faces.

Flame tending was the first step on a journey of deepening my devotional practice to the deities I love best.  This year I intend to further deepen my devotional practices by adding practices intending to strengthen my relationship with the local spirits of my home and environment in addition to continuing the other practices that have developed over this year.

Here in Glasgow I’m also a member of Tuatha de Bridget an open group that holds rituals for each of the main eight festivals that are open to the public.  This afternoon we held our Imbolc ritual which I had the privilege of writing and leading.  I have chosen to share the text of this rite below.

Imbolc 2016

Guide: We come together to honour Brighid on this Imbolc day. Let us start with peace.

North: May there be peace in the North

East: May there be peace in the East

South: May there be peace in the South

West: May there be peace in the West

All: May there be peace throughout the world.

Guide: Let the Spirits of this place be honoured.

Libation offered to the Spirits of Place.

Guide: Let the circle be cast to focus our energies and hold our purpose together.

Circle is cast.

Guide: Today we celebrate Imbolc. Seasonally this brings our attention to the first small signs of the coming spring in the land around us. More importantly it is a day to honour Brighid in Her many names and faces. We are Tuatha de Bridget, the tribe of Bridgid, it is right that we honour and praise her as we call ourselves her children.

Is Bridey the same as Bridget? Are they the same as Brigantia or St Brighid? Are the tales that remain fragments from different individuals sharing that name or remaining threads of a once whole mythos?

Does each aspect reflect a facet of a whole being like the faces of a gem? Or is each aspect more like a unique stained glass window lit by the same source of light?

These questions are part of Her Mystery and any answers may be different to each of us.

She is unique as a being whose stories and devotion spans both Pagan and Christian worlds. Today we honour Her.

North 2: I call to Brigantia of Justice, She who was known to the Lands of Northern England and Southern Scotland as tribal deity of the Brigantes tribe. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

East 2: I call to Bridget, Lady of Poetry, She who inspires artist, poet and storyteller, She who brings Awen. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

South 2: I call to Bridey of the Forge, Lady of Fire, She who will forge our souls to Her purpose if we let Her. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

West 2: I call to Saint Bridget, Generous Lady of Healing, She who is known as a Patron saint of Ireland and whose flame burns once more at Kildare. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

Above: I call to Bridget the creator who sings out with the stars of the universe. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

Beneath: I call to Brigantia of secrets and mysteries whose voice awakens the land. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

Centre: I call to Bridey of Hearth and Home, mother and protector. Lady, we honour you.

All: Lady we honour you

Guide: Many are Her faces, Many are Her names. Many names of one being or one being reflected in many incarnations. Today we honour Her mystery.

(Pause for silent contemplation)

Guide: I ask that the youngest and oldest among us join together to offer this libation of milk to Her on behalf of all of us.

(Eldest to speak on behalf of us all, youngest to pour out the libation)

Guide: I now call on three children of Bridgid to come forward and together bless the food and wine for sharing among us.

(One to hold the wine, one to hold the food, one to speak words of blessing for food and wine)

(Food and drink to be shared in the usual fashion for our group)

Guide: We have now shared food, drink and toasts, would anyone like to share music, song, story or poetry?

(sharing of music, song, story or poetry)

Guide: It is time to draw this rite to a close so let us thank Brighid for Her blessings.

Centre: I call to Bridey of Hearth and Home, mother and protector. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

Beneath: I call to Brigantia of secrets and mysteries whose voice awakens the land. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

Above: I call to Bridget the creator who sings out with the stars of the universe. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

West 2: I call to Saint Bridget, Generous Lady of the Healing, She who is known as a Patron saint of Ireland and whose flame burns once more at Kildare. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

South 2: I call to Bridey of the Forge, Lady of Fire, She who will forge our souls to Her purpose if we let Her. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

East 2: I call to Bridget, Lady of Poetry, She who inspires artist, poet and storyteller, She who brings Awen. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

North 2: I call to Brigantia of Justice, She who was known to the Lands of Northern England and Southern Scotland as tribal deity of the Brigantes tribe. Lady, we thank you for your presence in our lives.

All: Lady we thank you.

Guide: Let the circle holding our purpose and focus together be opened.

(circle is opened)

Guide: Once more we thank the Spirits of this Place for holding us for our rites.

Let us end as we began with peace.

North: May there be peace in the North

East: May there be peace in the East

South: May there be peace in the South

West: May there be peace in the West

All: May there be peace throughout the world.

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Rising from the ashes

In December I had a bit of a breakdown at work.  I’ve been suffering from stress and anxiety for a while but kept pushing myself on trying to make it to the winter holidays when I thought I’d get a bit of a break.  I pushed myself too far and ended up swearing at my line manager and then collapsing into tears.  The incident has led to the disciplinary procedure being set in process and I’ve been off work ever since.

I am gradually recovering.  I’m now on mediation and seeing a counsellor.  I’ve also been seen by the occupational service at work.  Earlier this week I felt able to contact our human resources department and advise them that I thought I could now cope with the disciplinary process.  I had previously postponed it twice as I simply couldn’t cope with it.  They’ve moved fast and next week on 2nd Feb the meeting will take place.  I will be supported at it by a local union representative.  I am still very anxious about it but I have support and I think I can cope now.

I’m still not feeling ready to return to work but I am gradually rising from the state I was in.  I am hoping that will mean I will also be feeling more like blogging again.

As part of the more spiritual aspect of my recovery I have been “invited” by a series of three coincidences concerning Brighid that all took place on the same day to deepen my devotional practice.  Tomorrow evening at sundown local time I will be joining with members of Clann Bhride in the practice of flame keeping with the start of a new flamekeeping cill.  In the past few days I have been gently preparing for this new phase of my devotions.

My first love though has always been Epona and I have begun to take steps to deepen my devotional practice to Her as well.  After some thought I have chosen to offer roses to Epona Rigantona as this is in keeping with some of what is known from Roman times.  I’m doing this a bit differently though as I’m not offering cut roses.  I’ve begun knitting roses and offering them to Her, not at set times but as I feel it is time to do so.  My first sits on my shrine to Her.  Subsequent roses may join it there or get sent to friends who also honour Epona.

Prayers to Brigantia and Maponos

Earlier this month I had a string of coincidences including this post about a new Brighid Devotional leading me to read this and the freely available Clann Bhride Book of Hours.  Brigantia was clearly calling me for it is this name that I use for the being also known as Brighid, Bhride, Bridey and other names.

From this reading I was inspired to adapt one of the prayers for my own use with Brigantia.  I have also been called recently to deepen my relationship with Maponos and the prayers to Brigantia have inspired a similar set of prayers to Maponos.  For me these beings come across as siblings so perhaps it’s not so surprising that deepening my relationship with one leads to a connection with the other.

I offer both of these prayers here.

Prayers to Brigantia
For use with prayer beads with three sets of nine beads and three starting/finishing beads.
(Adapted from Prayers to Brighid in the Clann Bhride Book of Hours)
Hail Brigantia of poetry and healing!
Hail Brigantia of the forge and of justice!
Hail Brigantia of hearth and home!
Brigantia of poetry, I praise you.
Brigantia of healing, I praise you.
Brigantia of the forge, I praise you.
Brigantia of justice, I praise you.
Brigantia of fire, I praise you.
Brigantia of water, I praise you.
Brigantia of fire in water, I praise you.
Brigantia of the shining stars, I praise you.
Brigantia of hearth and home, I praise you.
Brigantia of poetry, bless my heart with poetry and allow me to see your poetry in all things.
Brigantia of healing, bless my heart with healing and allow me to extend your healing to beings in need.
Brigantia of the forge, bless my heart with strength and allow me to forge my way in the company of all beings.
Brigantia of justice, fill my heart with justice and give me the strength to work for your justice.
Brigantia of fire, light my heart with your fire, let me radiate your warmth.
Brigantia of water, cool my mind with your water, let me flow with the waters of life.
Brigantia of fire in water, help me find the inspiration to nurture the positive energies of my home.
Brigantia of the shining stars, as you sing with the Universe, help me to find the harmony of the greater song of my life.
Brigantia of the hearth, I ask for your protection for my home and my family.
Brigantia of poetry, I honour you.
Brigantia of healing, I honour you.
Brigantia of the forge, I honour you.
Brigantia of justice, I honour you.
Brigantia of fire, I honour you.
Brigantia of water, I honour you.
Brigantia of fire in water, I honour you.
Brigantia of the shining stars, I honour you.
Brigantia of hearth and home, I honour you.
Brigantia of poetry and healing, I thank you.
Brigantia of the forge and of justice, I thank you.
Brigantia of hearth and home, I thank you.
Prayers to Maponos
For use with prayer beads with three sets of nine beads and three starting/finishing beads.
(Inspired by Prayers to Brighid in the Clann Bhride Book of Hours)
Hail Maponos of dreams and song!
Hail Maponos of healing waters!
Hail Maponos ever young!
Maponos of dreams, I praise you.
Maponos of song, I praise you.
Maponos of healing, I praise you.
Maponos of the wildwood, I praise you.
Maponos of the summer meadow, I praise you.
Maponos of the shimmering loch, I praise you.
Maponos of love, I praise you.
Maponos of laughter, I praise you.
Maponos of hope, I praise you.
Maponos of dreams, help me to dream a better dream.
Maponos of song, help me sing from my heart.
Maponos of healing, bless my heart with healing and allow me to extend your healing to beings in need.
Maponos of the wildwood, bless me with the strength of the wood.
Maponos of the summer meadow, bless me with the peace of the meadow.
Maponos of the shimmering loch, let your healing waters refresh me.
Maponos of love, help me recognise the love around me.
Maponos of laughter, help me live each day with joy.
Maponos of hope, help me to look forward with hope.
Maponos of dreams, I honour you.
Maponos of song, I honour you.
Maponos of healing, I honour you.
Maponos of the wildwood, I honour you.
Maponos of the summer meadow, I honour you.
Maponos of the shimmering loch, I honour you.
Maponos of love, I honour you.
Maponos of laughter, I honour you.
Maponos of hope, I honour you.
Maponos of dreams and song, I thank you.
Maponos of healing waters, I thank you.
Maponos ever young, I thank you.

Perennial Druidry: Waves through Grasses Moon

As readers will know this year I decided to start working with the Perennial Druid course materials hosted on the Druid Network website. Unit Seven in the Perennial Druidry course is called Field Poppy Moon by Bobcat.  Poppies though are not very evident in this area at all so this name does not seem to fit here.  What is most noticeable to me is the grasses. In our local park many of the grasses are now almost as tall as me, some taller, with spots of delicate white and yellow wildflowers and the darker greens and purples of tall, vibrant thistles.  As the breeze blows the grasses gently wave, the sounds and sights remind me of the sea.  To me therefore this is Waves through Grasses Moon.
I have found that this moon I have had little time to devote to the course.  Partly that’s due to the demands of home and family and partly other reading leading to inspiration for new prayers for both Brigantia and Maponus.
This unit talks about midsummer as a festival time and a season of waning summer.  I don’t do anything separate to the summer solstice in terms of ritual for midsummer although I do note its passing and I don’t really feel the pause that Bobcat talks about, my perception of this time of year is different.  This moon started on 27 June and ended on 26 July so I’m a touch late writing up my reflections but that’s life.  For me this period is a very busy one.  Here in Glasgow the children break up for summer around midsummer so this moon marked the first weeks of the summer holidays.  For me juggling part time work with family time, organising cover for when I’m at work, getting school uniforms ready for the next school year and looking after two children with different needs is both hectic and often tiring.  Luckily I do have great family support but it’s still tough.  My energies have often been drained with day to day life this moon with little left over.
As I have been going about though, my eyes have been drawn often to long wild grasses along road verges, in our local park and in fields left fallow.  I’ve also been enchanted by dancing damselflies and summer birds like swifts sweeping over the grasses. I have had moments of wonderful inspiration leading to new prayers.  I’ve been able to take moments where I could pause and connect with the life in our local park and in my garden.  My garden in particular has taken on a deeper role as a place of grounding and re-energising for me. A few minutes wandering around doing a spot of weeding or dead-heading roses of an evening has taken on an increasing importance at this busy time.  These things link into the themes of this unit of energy, life, stillness and strength in the course.
Yesterday I honoured my ancestors as is my practice at the dark moon.  Today I prepare to move forward into the next moon.