Has summer come?
The sky today is blue yet the air is chill.
Is Beltane here?
Thousands celebrate yet I see no sign of the hawthorn blossom.
Have God and Goddess come together in love?
Which God? Which Goddess? Is love only about sex at this time or is it still more? And why not God joined to God or Goddess to Goddess or triads or groups?
Last month I bared my skin on the hills under a warm spring sun, felt the gentle breeze caress me. I felt connected to the loch before me, the land under me, the sky above me. I felt the energy of life thrumming through it all. I felt joined and totally free.
Today I feel confused, disconnected and thrown back into winter. There is snow in the hills, the land is cold and damp, the breeze cool, the sun bright but not yet feeling warm. I look for the marker of the hawthorn blossom and there is none to be found.
Many are the Beltane greetings I have seen today. But Beltane still eludes me.